embracing changes and moving along

Looks like the change of season is just what I needed. There’s something about Fall that always makes me feel refreshed and energized after the agonizing heat and lethargy of the summer months.

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I’ve accepted that the reason I’m having such a hard time sticking to my editing schedule is that I’m still having trouble deciding on which of two deciding moments should come first. I’ve mulled this over for a few weeks and have plotted out more than one sequence of events, but I’m still going back and forth on the order of events. Just when I think I’ve got it figured out, I find a reason to reverse the order again. I think I’m leaning towards one particular sequence, but either one will have a major impact on the rising action and I really don’t want to get it wrong. It’s all self-doubt. In my mind, one series just makes more sense, but it goes against the original sequence of events that lead up to the second half of the novel in the current draft…. I’ve been steaming ahead, keeping in mind that I will have to go back and mostly rewrite two major chapters, as well as several subsequent scenes. It feel like an impasse–if I don’t decide, I really can’t continue, so something must be done. I’ve been trying to leave myself a trail of notes throughout the manuscript to remind myself where I need to go back and make changes when I do make a decision, but the moment has come to make it stick. I just hope it’s the right choice. I think it is… Urgh, so many thoughts.

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I’ve been pinning like mad in anticipation of holiday cooking and crafting. (Yes, I’m one of those people who actually makes stuff). I’m about 95% sure that I’m going to have to buy a new car (or a new used car) this December and I’m hoping to mitigate the cost of holiday spending by making presents for the family and the office. I’m trying to stick to a $50 budget for my small list of loved ones, but I foresee practical/useful presents for all.

This will be my first time buying a car and I am so anxious about the whole loan, haggling, sales person situation. Ugh. Wish I could just use amazon.

Work is going well, though I don’t think I will ever get used to the 2 hours I spend driving to and fro every day. I really do miss the luxury of a short commute and a 7 hour work day (though not the pay).

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Gave up my first foray into Scott Lynch and Henry James. I just wasn’t in the right frame of mind for them, so I’ll have to give them a shot some other time. Meanwhile, I’m woefully behind on the Reading our own tomes challenge with 15 of 30 books read. I really don’t see myself reading 15 books before the end of the year, unless I “cheat” and read all the manga and comics on my TBR shelf. I’m taking a nice breather with Lauren Willig, whose books always manage to make me smile.

and September arrives without warning

Egads! September is upon us and the highs are still in the 90s! Ugh. Bring on the fall breezes please. A lot happened in August (a little too much, if truth be told), but not all of it worth lingering on.

on writing…

No writing happened. None at all. If you’ve been reading the blog for a few weeks, you’ll know why I had little desire to do much more than sit and be still.

on books…

There were books. And there were some wee tumblr reviews. I was in desperate need of a good, fluffy, sugar-coated read to take my mind off things, so I read Jenny Colgan’s Welcome to Rosie Hopkins’ Sweet Shop of Dreams–which had been sitting on my TBR shelf for at least a year. I tried to finish The Winter’s Tale, but just plain lost interest and gave up on that, so I finished the rest of Sakura Hime instead.

Also read an ARC of Windows on the World: 50 Writers, 50 Views by Matteo Pericoli, which proved to be the perfect mental getaway.

I started the month off by reading Written in My Own Heart’s Blood, which was interesting, but not the satisfying continuation I was expecting.

on life…

Shit hit the fan. It’s a fact. It’s starting to get better and I’m finally starting to feel myself again.

everything else…

I’ve been doing a lot of walking and thinking. Also yoga. Yoga became one of my passions this year, and after years of thinking myself highly inflexible, I’m finding that I can bend further and feel more centered than I ever have. It really helped during the turmoil of the last month.