Day 380, Monday
So insomnia is back. Woke up at 4am, my brain spinning with thoughts and fixating on a random comment posted to one of the writing groups I recently joined. Went to work a little earlier, took a quick trip to my mom’s, and managed not to collapse until I got home.
Day 381, Tuesday
Slept a bit better, but I definitely have a migraine that keeps coming and going. Interrupted sleep isn’t helping.
The day was good, the evening not so much.
Day 382, Wednesday
Another crazy early morning. My brain just won’t stop whirring at random hours. I laid off the caffeine earlier than usual today. Hoping I don’t wake up at 1 am again. Yep, that’s what happened last night. Up at 1, fell asleep, up at 3, fell asleep, and so on until I finally rolled out of bed around 8:30 after shutting all my alarms off (even the one that requires me to get out of bed and walk across the room).
Vaccine #2 tomorrow. I’m so glad that I was able to get it. The numbers are starting to rise again in Miami, and I don’t look forward to having a campus full of unvaccinated 20 year olds running around this summer. My migraine/neck pain is still throbbing. Going to take some advil before bed (less than my usual dose) and hope I don’t have a full blown attack in the morning since I can’t take advil before the shot. The pain ebbs and flows.
Day 383, Thursday
Vaccine #2! Instant soreness and general lethargy. Had a giant breakfast to celebrate the milestone.
Day 384, Friday
Fever hit around 2am. On and off all day, but it finally broke sometime around dinner. Arm still mad sore!
Day 385, Saturday – Day 386, Sunday
Arm slightly sore on Saturday, but quickly improving. Started my CampNaNo project, which is to get as close to a finished draft as possible so I can send it off to betas.
Another early morning on Sunday. Woke up at 4am after some weird nightmare involving the little girl cat. Had to get out of bed and check on her just to calm my racing heart. Couldn’t get back to sleep after that, so I did something I never do—I sat down to write at 5am, cup of coffee by my side. Met my daily goal well before I normally get up, but there’s no way I can ever do this regularly. Aside from the nightmare, I’m not fully alive at 5am. I’ve tried it before; I burn out by the end of the week. If that’s your thing, more power to you. I struggle with chronic fatigue and insomnia, choosing work over sleep doesn’t end well for me.
Speaking of which, this week’s vlog is going to be a few days late. I thought I’d be able to edit it tonight, but it’s more than twelve hours since I woke up as I write this and there’s no way I’m nearing empty.
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Have you tried passionflower tea? I have a hard time sleeping as well, and I don’t know if it’s a placebo, but I’ve been having a better time sleeping since I started drinking it. Insomnia sucks. Hope you find a solution soon!
The melatonin that I take has passionflower in it, but the tea isn’t a bad idea! I’ll pick some up next time I stop by Whole Foods for tea 🙂
Oh Gricel I’m so sorry. Insomnia is the WORST. The last three months not having it feels like waking out of a ten-year nightmare. I really hope the migraines subside and the sleep improves soon. I wish I had suggestions for you but I’m sure you’ve tried everything already! 😦
At this point, I’m thinking it’s hormonal. I’ve managed to stabilize a bit, but the last couple of months have been strange for my cycle 😦