life: with migraines

As I write this, I’m sitting in a darkened room. I took the day off because after 4 days of a steady, throbbing, stomach-roiling migraine, I decided there was no point in commuting for an hour and being miserable. It’s a luxury and a privilege and one that I’m thankful for every damn day because there are days when the migraines are unrelenting and the pain is a constant pressure in my head, my neck, my joints, my stomach… it’s unbearable.

And this is one of the not-so-bad ones. My headache is manageable. I was able to get out of bed. I did my groceries over the weekend, took care of errands, but the symptoms make it hard to function. Sometimes, a migraine feels like a stabbing in my head, other times, like now, it feels like the constant threat of fainting and/or vomiting.

Luckily, the threat has been just that—a threat. Worst are the days when it’s not a threat. I’ve never fully passed out, but my vision has faded in the most terrifying way. And there was that one time I couldn’t keep anything down, even water, and had to go to urgent care.

I share this because it’s part of my reality and it’s one that often leaves me feeling depressed and turning to Dr. Google for help because there’s no other help to be had. Sometimes, I just want to know if someone else has the same symptoms.

For those going through the same thing—I see you.

makeup capsule: week of 2.10.20

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Still no eye shadow this week… I might be brave and try some eyeliner, but perhaps not.

This week I’ll be using:

  • Twinkle * Apothecary the Stain on cheeks – still loving it and it’s just the right amount of blush without looking madeup
  • Juice Beauty Stem Cellular CC Cream – almost an empty!!!! maybe 1 more week left…
  • RMS uncoverup 22 – for concealing
  • Wet N’ Wild Retractable Brow Pencil – for ze brows (per usual)
  • Honest Beauty Liquid Lipstick in Love – this is a pure red to replace a recent empty (really, a declutter) – note, this takes a REALLY long time to set
  • Rituel de Fille lipstick in Fortune Teller – a dark, deep plummy red that I need to start using (another recent acquisition)
  • Kuumba Made Egyptian Musk fragrance oil
  • Smith’s Rosebud salve – a classic

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video: off the shelf – what I read – January 2020

A little bit of everything this month… What I read, what I started, and what I gave up on in January.

What have you been reading lately? Any female-driven fantasy recommendations? 

📚 Read

Harleen, v.3 by Stjepan Sejic

A Christmas Promise by Mary Balogh

The Last Wish by Andrzej Sapkowski

The Wallflower Wager by Tessa Dare

The Little Book of Hygge by Meik Wiking

Emergency Contact by Mary HK Choi

Atomic Habits by James Clear (audiobook)

📖 Reading

On a Wild Night by Stephanie Laurens

Red, White, and Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston

Anti-Diet: Reclaim Your Time, Money, Well-Being and Happiness Through Intuitive Eating by Christy Harrison

🚫 DNF

Twice Upon a Blue Moon by Christina Lauren

🤔 Forgot to mention

Stuck-up Suit by Penelope Ward and Vi Keeland – this is a billionaire romance, which is not my style normally. It was ok. There was some weirdness re: possessiveness and unprotected sex that I didn’t like.

 

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makeup capsule: week of 2.2.20

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This week I’ll be using:

  • Twinkle * Apothecary the Stain on cheeks – this is a perfect flush
  • Twinkle * Apothecary bronzing balm – to highlight my cheekbones (also works as a blush for me)
  • RMS uncoverup 22 – for concealing
  • Wet N’ Wild Retractable Brow Pencil – for ze brows
  • Kosås lipstick in Royal – a plummy rose shade
  • Twinkle * Apothecary Mulholland perfume – a lovely flower-based scent that dries down to a powdery jasmine

A streamlined #makeupcapsule this week. Why? Because my eyes were nearly shut on Saturday morning and I think I finally found the culprit behind the eye dermatitis I had last year….

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ELF MAKEUP BRUSHES!

Yep. Brushes, not shadows. For nearly 9 months, I stopped using eye shadow (hence, my failed #projectpan), thinking I was allergic to an ingredient in the shadows.

A few months ago, I picked up some new brands and bought some Morphe brushes.  This time, no dermatitis. I thought it was over, all healed.

Not so.

On Friday, I switched to one of my old elf brushes (one I hadn’t touched in months) and BAM swollen eyelids and what looked like contact dermatitis up to my brow bone. I’m a delicate flower and allergic to sooo many things. I suspect a fiber in the synthetic bristles is the culprit, so I’m putting these in quarantine, but I’m pretty sure I have my answer.

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life: January – month in review

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Plans were made, habits were started, and more tarot cards were read.

Some good things:

  • Finished Draft 1 of the secret angst project.
  • Completed all 30 days of YWA’s Home yoga program.
  • Started decluttering the stuff that’s been taking over my home for the last year or so.
  • Read some good books. (video coming this week)
  • Limited my coffee intake and stayed within budget (for lattes).

Some challenges:

  • Grumpy face kitty had to go to the vet. Lots of trauma for all. She’s ok though; have to monitor her bladder sitch and feed her a vet diet (I have thoughts, but not going to challenge this).

 

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video: 2010 – 2020 | 10 year retrospective 🌟 goals and achievements

Looking back on the last ten years: moving forward, growing in my field, and considering non-traditional markers of success.

How do you measure success?

Take 5 minutes to write what you did in the last ten years, you’ll probably surprise yourself.

MENTIONED

Smart Podcast, Trashy Books, Episode 386: High Fives and Forget ‘Should:’ Talking Goals and Resolutions with Scarlett Cole

 

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makeup capsule: week of 1.27.20

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A new series for 2020! Part of my #projectuseitup and #projectpan

I committed to panning several of my products in 2019, to limited success, so this year I’ve started working on a weekly capsule to make regular use of what I own and determine what needs to go. My collection is fairly tame compared to some, but I still have more than I can use up in a year. My goal is something similar to the #30wears concept for clothing–making regular use of my makeup through intentional wear.

If I buy it, I have to use it.

(I’m also including scent as part of the capsule.)

This week, I’ll be using:

  • Juice Beauty Stem Cellular CC cream in Light (soon to be an empty!)
  • Sappho New Paradigm mascara in Black
  • Wet n’ Wild Retractable brow pencil in Medium Brown
  • RMS concealer in 22
  • Twinkle * Apothecary’s the Stain
  • Twinkle * Apothecary’s Bronzing Balm
  • Kosas Rosewater (it has a few uses left – this was 2019’s project pan) and Royal
  • Smith’s Rosebud Salve (I use this every morning and have for years)
  • Urban Decay Naked Ultimate Basics (this palette has weird aspirational vibes for my 2010 self who wanted but couldn’t splurge on the original)
  • Kuumba Made Egyptian Musk fragrance oil

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video: off the shelf – what I read: Nov – Dec 2019

Another marathon #romance reading session… What I read, what I started, and what I didn’t finish in November and December 2019.

What have you been reading lately? What are you loving? I’m open to all genres and recs ❤️

📚 Read

The Right Swipe by Alisha Rai (audiobook)

Forbidden Hearts series by Alisha Rai (I read them in reverse, don’t judge me.)

  • Hurts to Love You (book 3)
  • Wrong to Need You (book 2)
  • Hate to Want You (book 1)

Trade Me by Courtney Milan

The Rogue of Fifth Avenue by Joanna Shupe

Fix Her Up by Tessa Bailey

📖 Reading

Emergency Contact by Mary HK Choi

📕 DNF

The Countess Conspiracy by Courtney Milan

 

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video: chatty life update, seeking happiness, 2020 intentions

Where I’ve been, working on a new writing project, putting querying on hold to rewrite, my thoughts on book twitter and staying out of it, #projectpan love, future plans for this channel, and more as I try to catch up and re-invigorate.

What are you doing to seek happiness in 2020?

 

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