life: searching for something like equilibrium

The last few weeks have been interesting. I was forced to rest because of an ongoing pain in my ankle, which may or may not have been triggered by an elderly lady literally whacking me in the back of the leg with her grocery cart one fine spring day, but alas. I may not be 100% sure of the origin but I am 100% sure that I am tired of the setbacks when it comes to my physical well-being. I need a list to keep track of all the stupid (and I mean stupid) injuries I have had over the last 5 or so years. Yep, I’m tired.

Anyhow, after several scheduling delays, I got a cortisone injection, dealt with a boot, and then discovered it was all in vain. My pain is likely my Achilles (which I suspected all along!) and not a result of my previous (and repeated) ankle sprains. *deep sigh*

I’m trying other options now. Like DIY physical therapy and shoe modifications (because I’m also tired of spending on doctors and PT appointments when I can do the moves at home–no offense to the PTs. They’re lovely. I just can do without the $40 copay at every visit).

Egads, this blog is getting ranty 😅. Welcome to life lol.

Anyhow, I went to California amidst all the drama (post-boot, luckily) and returned refreshed, reinvigorated, re-energized, other words that start with R, but mostly ready to take control of my path again. I’ve been floundering and wallowing for too long. I have goals and dreams and aspirations that I’ve set aside and allowed to go to waste for too many months. Depression is a bitch, but I need to do more for myself. Here’s to doing. 🥂

Also, here’s to the love SFMoMaxRM exhibit. It got me back to California sooner than I expected and gave me the push I needed to re-engage my creativity. We will not speak of my finances… that is a different project.

Here are some of my favorites from the show.

I posted a few more photos from my trip on insta, if you’re curious.

social distance diaries: days 233-239

in which we weather several storms

edit: I got the numbering wrong in the first post and have updated the days.

Day 233, Monday

I finally got some sleep after the cats started to tolerate each other. They’re not friendly, but no one will attack. Locked them out of my room and hoped for the best… woke up to find an unexpected victim: one of my jade plants was knocked from the sill, smashing the pot. Luckily, it was decorated with washi tape, which held the pieces close enough to prevent further destruction.

It was a long day.

Day 234, Tuesday

Kept busy all day to keep from thinking about the election… Obviously, received reports from my friends as soon as the numbers started rolling, but I disconnected fairly early and went to bed.

Day 235, Wednesday

Early start to my day with a visit to my endocrinologist for my yearly checkup. All is well and any weirdness with my headaches, cycle, etc, is unrelated to my thyroid (though, must admit, these have improved in recent months).

Still tensely watching the election results and hoping for something positive.

Day 236, Thursday

Waiting along with the rest of the world. This week has been extra productive as I a) hold the existential dread at bay and b) clear my to-do list for a partial day off on Friday to celebrate the boy’s birthday (and by boy, I mean my partner not some secret child, in case anyone is confused). He doesn’t know this (yet), but I’m making mini cheesecakes as a surprise. Making rather than baking because they’re pressure cooked! I’m so excited to taste them, but have to wait until tomorrow.

Trip to the doctor was not as reassuring as I had hoped. Need to see a specialist.

Day 237, Friday

The verdict is in! Instant Pot cheesecake was a success! It takes just like a baked cheesecake, except the crust isn’t crisp (that can be remedied with a blind bake, if you really like a crisp crust). I tried a piece (screw my lactose intolerance) and was very pleased. Will purchase a few more spring forms for Christmas treats. – for the curious, this is the recipe I used from Little House, Big Alaska.

In the process of scheduling a visit with an orthopedic oncologist. As per usual, I had to figure it out by myself because my doctor referred me to the wrong kind of oncologist.

Day 238, Saturday

Prepping for the story by charging ALL the things–laptops, switch, backup batteries, cute but surprisingly functional kitty lamp. I’m sticking it out at home because I don’t want to stress the cats and I’ve been to too many doctor’s offices to feel comfortable staying at my mom’s.

I’ve been finding joy where I can – celebrating Joe and Kamala, enjoying takeout with the boy, and sneaking up on one very alarmed cat.

Day 239, Sunday

Stormy weather started around 10 am. Brought all the plants in because the succulents DO NOT appreciate a soak.

All day rain and dramatic gusts, the scariest part has been the horrifying flood alert from the county. So grateful that this wasn’t a worse storm but the flooding is pretty bad based on reports.

On a side note, the weird foot fetish stalkers have emerged again. I post one shoe review and this nonsense starts.

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life: 2020 intentions

2020-intentions

More tarot practice

More daily yoga

More walking in general

More adventuring and “flaneuring”

More cooking

More personal and professional development

More [herbal] tea

More joy

Less twitter

Less self-criticism

Less coffee

Less distraction

Less of the stuff that saps my energy

 

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